so........................ im not gunna lie i really dont know what to do about anything anymore. its all just so overwhelming! i cant wait till school is over! but then again at the same time this summer is going to be just as busy as the school year with my new job and everything else going on its just going to be crazy. why does everything have to be so complicated? and why do i feel like im making the wrong decisions? can i just please curl up in a ball and fall asleep forever!?!

PROM!

so... im really excited for prom! im trying to be happy about it so then maybe i will have a good time :) i really think that even tho i think its gunna be stupid cuz i dont have a date i still think that someone will cheer me up :D anyways i hope so hehe i love my dress and im going to look amazing! so thats always a good thing haha i really dont know how to get my hair done but other then that i am all ready im getting gitty hehe

GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

omgsh if this week hasnt been eventful enough! today i had to go and get in a car accident the first one ever in my life! it wasnt that bad but it didnt help that my car had already been hit before this on the front bumper and today i hit someone and really messed up the front of my car but hardly did nothing to their car but that was ok i guess. it just makes me so mad that i just have had the worst luck EVER! idk what i even did to get so unlucky

now what?

so..................... now what? well im thinking im going to go on a very long road trip to where you ask well idk i think im going to just start driving and see where it takes me (: idk who im going to go with or if im going to go with anyone at all i just need to get away from everything that has been going on like yea its not that bad im just tired of drama with everything i cant wait for my high school career to be OVERRR! i really am blessed with great friends it the other people here that really bother me and everything that is done and said about them that just bothers me the most... blah! thats how i am currently feeling i was up till 1:30 am last night doing homework and had to actually get up at 7:30 this morning

what to do now!

so basically im screwed for a prom date! i has one but he was a jerk! and now im left with a ticket and wont get my money back so... i NEED a date! but i guess if i dont, im out the money but i guess thats the story of my life... im not gunna lie i cant wait till prom is done and over with like yea im excited to go and all but in the mean time its just a pain in my butt! and right now the people i need the most wont even speak to me :( i just wish they realized how much i just want to be able to talk to them and everything to be ok...

if life only worked that way

most of you know about what happened this weekend but for thos who dont here it is. On friday josh and i broke up... yea it sucks but i guess "thats what we needed" as josh would say. yea in a way i feel the same but in a way i feel like he kind of let me down he always told me how we were going to go on trips this summer and we were going to have a blast together i wish that would happen. i was also looking forward to going to his prom which i would still go with him as friends but i really dont think he would go for that. sometimes i feel so sad about it but i just hope and pray that he will realize how much we need each other. because i know for sure i need him now more then ever. most of the time it doesnt even feel real like its all just a dream and i will wake up and everything will be fine... if life only worked that way.