GRADUATION!

i am so so so not ready for graduation. like in a way i cant wait cuz i know that im going to start something new next year but at the same time im kind of scared of what is to come. as much as my mom and i have been preparing for the graduation party and everything i just dont feel like im ready for it like there is something that is missing and that im going to forget something very important like the pictures or something haha i wouldnt get that lucky hehe (: i just hope that it doesnt turn out like really bad or something goes wrong but i guess if it does we will make it through it and everything will be fine i just like to worry haha

summer!

this summer is going to be so super crazy i dont even want to think about it. i start my new job on the 18th and i really dont know what to expect. i only know like 2 people that will be working with me but i dont even think i will really be working with them anyways. its gunna really suck to wake up at 7 every morning except Saturdays and Sundays and i will still have to work at hy-vee cuz my dad thinks that i wont have any money for a car if i dont but whatev!

crazyness!!!

prom was last weekend and i didnt sleep at all! i actually didnt go to sleep until noon on Sunday carzy i know and im still trying to catch up on sleep and yesterday i had to take a road trip to Wayne at 10pm cuz my stupid brother locked his keys in the car and i was the only one that could take him his keys but it was ok i went with kyle and it was fun. i havent been able to get to sleep till like 2am or so every night and it kinda sucks but im just glad that i only actually have one more day of school left but the only thing is this weekend is gunna suck i have so much stuff i have to get done its gunna suck so much! i am not looking forward to Monday at all! this weekend is going to go way way way to fast and thats not good at all.

so........................ im not gunna lie i really dont know what to do about anything anymore. its all just so overwhelming! i cant wait till school is over! but then again at the same time this summer is going to be just as busy as the school year with my new job and everything else going on its just going to be crazy. why does everything have to be so complicated? and why do i feel like im making the wrong decisions? can i just please curl up in a ball and fall asleep forever!?!

PROM!

so... im really excited for prom! im trying to be happy about it so then maybe i will have a good time :) i really think that even tho i think its gunna be stupid cuz i dont have a date i still think that someone will cheer me up :D anyways i hope so hehe i love my dress and im going to look amazing! so thats always a good thing haha i really dont know how to get my hair done but other then that i am all ready im getting gitty hehe

GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

omgsh if this week hasnt been eventful enough! today i had to go and get in a car accident the first one ever in my life! it wasnt that bad but it didnt help that my car had already been hit before this on the front bumper and today i hit someone and really messed up the front of my car but hardly did nothing to their car but that was ok i guess. it just makes me so mad that i just have had the worst luck EVER! idk what i even did to get so unlucky

now what?

so..................... now what? well im thinking im going to go on a very long road trip to where you ask well idk i think im going to just start driving and see where it takes me (: idk who im going to go with or if im going to go with anyone at all i just need to get away from everything that has been going on like yea its not that bad im just tired of drama with everything i cant wait for my high school career to be OVERRR! i really am blessed with great friends it the other people here that really bother me and everything that is done and said about them that just bothers me the most... blah! thats how i am currently feeling i was up till 1:30 am last night doing homework and had to actually get up at 7:30 this morning