Life sucks!

do you ever feel like you life is so stressful or even like pointless? well thats how mine feels like right now and i just cant deal with it anymore. i cant wait till graduation i need to get out of this school! everything about it just makes me want to hurl! last night was one of the worst nights of my life i just cant even describe to you how bad it really was i can hardly bare anything anymore. i dont know what to even think or feel or even how to react anymore its like im numb to everything and im in a dream that went all wrong and i need to wake up from this madness... someone just please pull me out of this dream that im in...PLEASE!

my vanentines day!

valentines was kind of a bust for me not gunna lie. i did have to work but at the same time i thought that i was going to be able to see josh but i guess hes to good for me W/E! haha just kidding. but really i had my hopes of being able to see josh just for a little while but i didnt, i always seem to do that not to say that josh crushes my dreams i just think unrealistically. josh did get my a rose though on friday when we hung out i was very surprised. on staturday after work i had the urge to find a gift for josh. so i went to walmart to find something cheesy. i got him a box of kisses that said heres a kiss for whenever im not around and he liked it and yea i also got him a little tinny bear that was pink and fuzzy that said i heart my sweetheart and a ring pop thats lights up that says be mine (i liked it) but over all surprisingly i had a good day but at work the manager yelled at me and and this other girl that was working at customer service with me because we werent "working" blah blah blah no one listens to him anyways but yea i had fun "not working"

the long weekend

so this weekend i had plans to get a lot done. i was going to start on a picture board for my graduation reception, find some things for my center pieces for my graduation, and do some well needed work on homework. well to say the least i got most of it done but not the important things like homework. i should say there is no excuse but really my mom and i got caught up in graduation things and by the time we were going to do anything else it was time for me to go to work and after work i got to adventurous with valentines gifts which wasnt good because i spent more then i wanted but dont tell anyone... im not going to lie to you but josh and i had a good weekend as well. i got a rose! i wasnt expecting anything at all but he was a sweety pie and got me a rose :)but it did kind of make me mad because we werent going to get anything for each other but o well i got him something too. with the homework thing im just not that motivated with things like that i just need to do something about it. but anyways see ya laters!